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As a daughter of a Black police officer, my identity is always divided.
When I hear news of the Brett Hankinson trial, I find myself at a crossroads of identity. I am a young Black woman who supports the police because I am the daughter of a retired, Black, Kentucky State Police Major. I will always respect how my dad spent twenty-five years sacrificing his life for the betterment of our community, and yet I will never condone police brutality, most frequently and disproportionately against people of color. Rather than fully supporting the Black or Blue side–as society pressures me to do–my identity is caught in the middle of what I call the “navy area.” Being “navy” means that you support the police’s efforts to establish safer communities but also recognize the rise of police brutality against the Black community.
The night of March 13, 2020, in Louisville, Kentucky, was especially disturbing for me as a Black woman. The fact that Breonna Taylor, a woman who looked like me, was murdered in her home left me fearful. This traumatizing event made me question if my identity as a Black woman was enough to warrant my death by the hands of those who were supposed to “protect” me. When my friends started protesting against the police in downtown Louisville, I couldn’t begin to decide whether I should join them. I still believed that the police were fundamentally protective, even as this new, deeper fear manifested.
The tension between the Black community and police officers is understandable. Over the years, many Black people have fallen victim to police brutality, and the interactions
between Black people and police officers have raised questions on whether the police are protecting or punishing us.
The United States government believes the same notion and is working towards protecting the foundation of police officers by reprimanding the reckless actions of Brett Hankison, who sprayed bullets into Taylor’s home. The jurors, I hope, will recognize the atrocity in Hankison’s actions and convict him for unjustly taking another Black person’s life. And yet, Hankison is just one police officer. His deplorable actions should not write the narrative for all police officers.
Consider the case of my father. At the time of Taylor’s murder, I reflected on the dynamic between police officers and Black people. As I considered my father’s identity, as both a Black person and a police officer, I imagined the difficulty of that intersectional identity. Seeing people on the news who look like you die by the hands of those wearing the same uniform as you is not an easy reality to accept.
That’s why my father now works as a professor at the only historically Black university in Kentucky. After serving as a trooper, he obtained a doctorate in criminal justice to give back to the community that ignited his love for social and racial justice. Through his work, my dad attempts to bridge the gap between police officers and the Black community.
My father’s identity as a black man and a police officer allows him to understand the importance of police reform and how diversity recruitment and representative community policing can unify police officers and the black community. If the culture of policing can change, then the outcome of interactions between minorities and police can change as well. His perspective inspired me to think of police brutality as a catalyst for police reform rather than a solidified monstrosity of evil that can only be changed by abolishing the police.
Solace between the Black community and police officers can only exist with internal police reform and external legal reparation. Only reform and reparation can dwindle the occurrences of police brutality against Black women, a reality that scares me to admit is prevalent in society today.
I support my Black brothers and sisters and will continue to fight for our protection in society. I also support those who wear blue uniforms and leave their families every day to protect our communities. You can still be Black and support the blue by not condoning bad conduct by law enforcement but supporting those who put their lives on the line to keep us safe. Don’t listen when society tells you to “choose a side.” You can stand in the “navy area” and still participate in conversations about police reform.